I am 19 years old, and I am a Lesbian! Wow, it feels good to put that down in writing :) I have known for years, but am just coming out. The reason it has taken so long is because I am a Christian. I almost came out when I was 14, I even told my track team. They didn’t believe, and shortly after telling them I went to a christian summer camp where I fell in love with God.
From that moment He stole my heart, but I always new that I wasn’t going to be the typical christian. For years I tried to fight, I even dated one of my close guy friends for three years. He was a great guy, but I wasn’t into him the way I should have been. He was in love with me, and I realized fast that I was lying to everyone that was my senior year of high school.
After he went to college we broke up, and I started this long road of self discovery. Over the span of about two and a half years, I discovered a lot. I discovered that I couldn’t keep lying to people, and I couldn’t keep acting like I was attracted to men. During this discovery period I left for college, a christian college at that, to study ministry. I love telling people about God, and spreading His love.
So many people in the church have so much hate towards those that are gay, that I was terrified to be myself, to come out. Then I realized that being gay is who I am, and hiding it is a shame. God will always be my center, and I know he will always love me. Gays are not damned to hell, it matters where your heart is. Not who you love. This was one of the most important things I learned through this road of self discovery. For years I hated myself, and what I was. Now I love who I am, and I am proud to say that I am a Christian who also happens to be a lesbian. This is just a tip of the ice berg of my story, but I wanted to share at least part of it with people who care :)